14 August 2025 I believe that the definition of happiness is relative and differs from person to person. Everybody has their definition and meaning of what happiness is to them. As someone with bipolar disorder, for the longest time, I have equated happiness with the (hypo)manic episodes I experience. How can I be blamed for…
There is no art without love, and there is no love without art
20 June 2025 Everything in my life has led me to this path as an artist. For me, being an artist is not merely a matter of a hobby or a career — it is a chosen destiny I must walk through and a fate I must follow. I was asked by a fellow mentor…
I am losing myself to my psychosis
16 June 2025 Life has been different since I attempted to take my life three months ago. My attempt to take my life led me to finding myself waking up in the ICU and being moved to the psych ward. I do not remember events prior to my suicide attempt, yet little did I know…
Our life is a simulation
15 June 2025 To surrender myself to my disorder is to surrender myself, to the deity that is above me. For I know surrendering to my mental health condition is to surrender to God. I like to think it is my calling. I am protesting at the moment, protesting against sleep because sleep is a…
I spent my entire life chasing after death
8 June 2025 I have always dreaded my birthday and the prospect of turning one year older. For my whole life, I have always seen birthdays as a sign that I have lived another painful year. Yet, it is strange how, when I turned 25 in May, I felt a sense of relief that I…
I am a stranger to planet Earth
28 May 2025 I have always viewed human connection as bizarre. A question I tend to ask myself since I was a child is how do humans connect with one another? Now I think about my behaviour in my childhood and teenage years, I was the weird kid growing up who didn’t know how to…
Love yourself first before loving others
31 March 2025 If there is a deadline that sets out when you are going to die, how are you going to live the rest of your life? If that was the case for me, I would much prefer to not live as though I am dying and live my life to the fullest until…
My thoughts are parasites that are eating away at my brain
27 March 2025 I am starting to feel hopeless once again, for sure the crash from mania is finally hitting me. Thoughts of death swarm over me, draining and exhausting me. For certain, I am not living, rather I am surviving in my suffering. My shoulders and chest feel heavy and the world is more…
Bipolar disorder is a hellish but pleasant curse!
2 March 2025 I’m too distracted, too overwhelmed by everything, by every little slightest human touch. My head is going in 100 different directions and it is difficult to slow these thoughts down. It feels as though I am on a highway with roads going in thousands of directions and there are lots of cars…